April 19, 2007 (in discob.multiply.com)

Acquaintances are people who you know but who you don’t share much with.
Friends are people who you share your life with, your experience, your advice, your hapiness, your pain, your ups and your downs.

After I joined Multiply, I’ve met amazing people: people who I share a lot in common (say in music or in way of thinking); people who are kinda stupid; people who add me but never talk to me; people, people, people.
The thing is, I had (and still have) a full life before multiply, and that included my crushes – excuse me, my online crushes -, my job, my life at school, my friends, my online friends, and my acquaintances.
But right after I joined Multiply, I went on vacation, remember? Well, I was leaving to Thailand, and I was not going to have internet for around 10 days. Which meant that my crush and I wouldn’t be chatting much, plus the fact that my crush was going out for holidays too, and was going to meet someone else, which didn’t make me that happy, but there was a reason for this meeting. My crush had some “problems” with self-esteem (running a bit low, near collapse, and I was in the same boat), and this meeting, if things went as we expected, would boost both self-esteem and hapiness.

So then I waited. My crush was only to arrive 10 days after me. I waited and was very ansious for an answer on what had happened. And that’s when today happened. My crush came online, and my feelings were nowhere to be found.
I had already forgotten about my feelings, since I have found someone else to focus my energies on (yes, my dear readers, I do shift and mold feelings. Call me cold, harsh or whatever, some just do it and I’m one of them).
It’s just weird. We had created this friendship aura around us, and, suddenly, I just feel it’s gone. I feel I’m no longer comfortable speaking to this person, I feel this person distant and strange towards me. Probably I should even keep a bit more distanced from this person. I’m just not sure.
The thing is, even though I like this person a lot, I’m not sure if I want to go through the crying and the whinning over “I wanna be with you, baby… I so do” (and I did mean this when I said it, I had never wanted a person so much in my whole life) again. And even the friendship.. I don’t know… It was weird, you know? Oh-so weird..!

Fact: I have a crush on someone else.
Fact: That person ain’t in multiply.
Fact: I doubt this crush will last.
Fact: I doubt I’ll stop being friends wiht my ex-crush.
Fact: I think this weird feeling will go away.
Fact: I’m done with facts.

I’d like to add that I am very happy and glad that I joined Multiply. In my opinion, it might be the cleanest place on the internet.
I’m also proud to say that I’ve met some of the nicest people here, and the person who invited me to join should also take some credit.

Thank you for reading me.

Dann